Monday, August 29, 2005
♥ dun look back....
i must learn not to look back on thing.... haiz... gt to noe a new friend... name shuyun.... smaller den me one year... gt to noe her cos hav to add her in msn to get songs n mtv of superstar... den started making friends.... wow... she gt so many songs... over 40 sia.... den gt from her kelly n group songs... though sum nt very clear or soft.... at least beta den nothin.... haha.... elaine kept asking to be positive... haha.... if i can... i try.... my mum kept saying me "min duan qing chang"... haha... i very agree wif her in this point.... i treasure relationship alot... n in the end.. i always get hurt... haiz....
Monday, August 29, 2005
Sunday, August 28, 2005
♥ hapi bdae ds!!!!
todae is ds bdae.... though earlier they gt say wan celebrate ds bdae... but i didnt noe wat is happening.... n after wat had happen.... i also very troubled.... been thinking alot.... den tok to elaine.... confine to her... felt better.... den sumore di gt two time fits... one at 4 sth.... den once again at 9 plus.... wondering hw cum he gt fits again.... been eating medicine.... but nw gt fits again..... den mami goin overseas in one weeks time.... duno wat to put.... jt nw angela, anan, taryn n alan call me.... tot wat happen... y suddenly so man ppl call me... den hurry call back.... den i rmb tt it was ds bdae n they are celebrating his bdae.... sry tt i didnt go.....want to spend sum time wif my mum b4 she go oversea for a week.... sry if i make anyone angry again.... mayb i too sensitive....
Sunday, August 28, 2005
♥ sry....
i noe nw alot of ppl is angry wif me... but they angry at me is right.... cos i cant think.... wat i did was stupid... though i noe tt wen i go back skool on tues everything will change.... there is nothin i can do.... though i do not want to lost any friends or make them angry.... but i hav.... even me myself cant forgive wat i did..... i always treat u all as my friends.... mayb u all might change ur opinion on me.... i duno wat will reali happen... but i noe it will not be a gd thing.... i sry for wat i did.... i noe wat i done cannot be undone.... hw i anger u all cannot be undone..... i noe wat i did is unforgivable.... but nw wat i can do..... i tot tt night wen u all joke around, everything was ok... except i need to do sth.... n u all teach me wat to do..... i nw noe i was too "tian zhen".... hw can everything ok jt half an hour ltr..... but no matter hw u all treat me..... i will still rmb wat u all told me n i hope our friendship will nv change.... if change, den i had no choice.... n 1 last thing... i m not not happi wif anyone... i cant do tt... cos it is i who did wrong... u all angry wif me..... scold me or say me.... i dun mind cos i did a very wrong n stupid thing.... SRY EVERYONE!!!!!!!! I DUN MEAN TO!!!!
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Saturday, August 27, 2005
♥ i sincerely apologize to u....
i very sry for wat i did yest night..... sry for making u all looking for me n panic abt me..... angela was right.... i m no longer a secondary child.... i m an adult... i should do thing in adut way n not in a childish n stupid way..... i should not be so selfish n onli think abt myself...... i should put myself in your shoes but i did not..... i onli care abt myself..... if angela had not pinpoint everything to me... i tink i will not be able to understand wat is going on..... i sry for putting so much stress on u..... i noe i should be beside u wen u help me wif my project... but instead i left u there alone helpin wif my project... wat i did was very wrong.... angela was right..... i myself duno wat i m thinking..... but after a night of reflection..... i noe wat i did to u was wrong..... n selfish.... pls dun tink too much.... both u n me have been thinking too much.... dun despair.... i was shocked to c u left kfc suddenly wen i had wanted to say sth to u all..... i msg u but u didnt reply.... i understand..... but dun tink u are wrong in helping me... u r not.... is myself think too much tt cause all this problems..... i should not hav done tt to u..... i sincerely apologize to u..... i hope tis thing will not affect ur studies.... i hope we can be lyk last time, study together... helping each other wen we nd help..... dun let tis affect ur studies.... if u nd help in any subject.... i will help u lyk hw u help me.... if u happen to c this post... pls msg or call or reply me.....
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Friday, August 26, 2005
♥ so tired.... so sick... so frustrated.... so grateful....
i been feelin so tired these daes... tink i getting sick soon.... den todae try to change my blog background... but duno wat happen... kept having error.... cannot view my blog... den try out on my other acccount... den cnp to my this blog.... den luckily can... finally.... den thank for helpin me wif my ip pro.... duno hw to thank u.... reali change all my website to more pro... too pro i guess.... den tok to him.... haha.... let me laugh until so funny.... den keep encouraging me... den promise each other must score n do our best for our cuming exam.... den headache since yest.... duno y my neck so pain suddenly..... i tink i goin to fall into a deep sleep until tml afternoon... i guess... hope my friends they finish their project already.... hope he can help them too... not onli me.....
Friday, August 26, 2005
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
♥ frustrated....
almost everydae late for morning class... cos of the stupid bus... everytime lyk tt.... when i nd the bus urgently.... the others bus comes two to three times b4 i can c my bus.... if i had a bicycle... i can no nd so early wake up.... so early go down to wait for the bus.... and often had to wait for more then half an hour.... so sickening.... y mami dun let me buy bicycle.... even if i wan... i have no money nw..... if i nw had a bicycle.... it makes my life so easy.... todae the pig so idoit.... tok so much rubbish in java class... so irritating..... nw hav to rush for all projects.... ip project.... sem project....productivity project.... arg.... who can help me..... exam so late... but is gd... gt more time to study... but gt three common test on 31 Aug... 8th n 9th of Sept..... haiz.... must faster finish my project so can study....
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
♥ quite a fun dae todae.......
toda wen out wif my mum to bishan first to buy her things..... den took mrt to city hall to get to suntec.... wen there shopping..... walk quite long..... den my mum bought a leaf earring tt i think was very nice looking.... den i also bought a bracelet and disney character handphone accessories for myself n one of my cousin who are goin overseas wif my mum they all...... den wen in carrefour to search for another thing to gv to my cousin's brother... but couldnt find anything suitable... den wen to the sweet section n bought some sweets for them instead..... den wanted to go tamp but as it was about four.... thinknig not much time for us to get back in time.... we decide to shop around sumore..... den wen in many shops..... den brought my mum in tcc to eat dessert.... order a hazelnut crunch cake, mocha villa for myself n a cappuccino italinano for my mum.... den we talk alot..... den the mocha villa was so bitter tt i shiver down n kept drinking plain water.... hahaha..... den tok alot.. about everything.... den told my mum tt i enjoy goin out wif her cos no nd spend money.... hahaha..... den told my mum next year we go korea.... so i must go work after my exam.... to save enough money and not anyhw spend on other thing..... but there are so much things i wan..... wen i was on bus.... i dreamt tt i had a bicycle and i everydae cycle to skool.... so cool.... hw i reali wish i can have a bicycle.... blue n silver in color.... so no nd spend $52 a month on concession pass..... but duno can have a bicycle anot.... haiz.....
Monday, August 22, 2005
Saturday, August 20, 2005
♥ phat nyte cool....
yest just finish our SIT last event.... phat nyte.... it was so cool.... see those ppl enjoying themselves so much... espcially my freshies.... stay inside for so long... den cum out for a drink den ran back again.... hahaha..... yest to me can be a bad dae... a hapi... and unforgetable.... cos alot of tings happen tt dae and i hav a lot of diff moods.... kept changing...... forgoten wat i wan to put abt phat ntye....
jt nw watch channel 8 show abt romance... abt hw the other party wan to propose marriage.... wen the ppl ask the gerl to set the guy up instead of the guy set the gerl up.... the gerl was brought to the special place the guy found for the gerl... den the gerl gt angry n walk away.... den ltr cum back dressing up as a monkey.... n the guy cried cos the gerl walk away... he tot he lsoe the gerl forever as he love her so much n didnt expect her to be so angry n tt they might not be able to marry each other.... but wen he was brought back to the place n the gerl was beside him yet he didnt noe.... n after a long speech abt the gerl.... the person-in-charge took out the head of the "monkey" n show the gerl face.... they hug each other as if they hav been away for so long....so sweet.... haiz.....
jt nw watch channel 8 show abt romance... abt hw the other party wan to propose marriage.... wen the ppl ask the gerl to set the guy up instead of the guy set the gerl up.... the gerl was brought to the special place the guy found for the gerl... den the gerl gt angry n walk away.... den ltr cum back dressing up as a monkey.... n the guy cried cos the gerl walk away... he tot he lsoe the gerl forever as he love her so much n didnt expect her to be so angry n tt they might not be able to marry each other.... but wen he was brought back to the place n the gerl was beside him yet he didnt noe.... n after a long speech abt the gerl.... the person-in-charge took out the head of the "monkey" n show the gerl face.... they hug each other as if they hav been away for so long....so sweet.... haiz.....
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Monday, August 15, 2005
♥ hapi... tired....
todae got wake up by my mum at 9 sth.... str away brush up and change to go gleneagles fetch my ah gong n ah ma... took 105 halfway to tpy int n took a taxi to gleneagles... wen reach gleneagles.... den i knew i spell wrong.... i spell it as grand eagles.... from wat my mum told me... no wonder i cant find this hospital on net... haha... same prounciation, different spelling.... den we took a taxi to orchard mrt to chinatown.... den my mum left me n ah gong... she go shopping wif ah ma cos my gong dun lyk shopping and often lyk to nag wen we buy things.... so i acc my ah gong to fook hai buildin.... to the chan brother agency to check sth... den meet my mum at mrt stn... den we go ps... same again... i left wif my my ah gong but not for long cos tot of goin watch movis since nowhere to go... but the show we want watch is 3.30pm... too late... so go find my mum den we decided to go woodlands... easy for my ah gong n ah ma to go hm since they live in sembawang..... had a takopachi b4 goin woodland den share one wif ah gong cos he say he tried octopus wan not nice... den let him try prawn den finally he ok wif it.... again... i wif ah gong.... den we walk around.... den halfway wen go find my mum... my ah gong go toilet until he disappear... cannot find him... so i walk wif my mum n ah ma.... den saw him halfway.... wen kopitiam for a rest.... order one carrot cake wif four chopsticks n spoons.... abit exaggerating.... haha.... after a long rest.... we wen to sportlink to buy sportshoe for my ah gong.... look for quite long and finally saw one tt is veyr nice.... den my ah gong say he taste not bad... hahaha.... den i bought a cap with is 9.90 n my ah gong bought the shoe for 103.95.... den say y gt 95cent.... round down to 103 lar.... haha.... if can argue price very gd liao.... hahaha.... den ltr we took mrt hm.... halfway my ah gong n ah ma alight at sembawang den me n my mum went amk take bus hm.... den me tok alot to my mum..... had a long tok.... so nice n fun.... very long nv go out wif ah gong n ah ma..... next time wen i free.... i must take them out... cos they dun go out often n often stay at hm....
Monday, August 15, 2005
Saturday, August 13, 2005
♥ unhapi n sad.....
i was told yest tt my mum leaving on the 5th of sept.... den i just blurt.... not my business..... after tt i was very sad cos i didnt mean to say tt to my mum.... i was just very unhapi..... duno wat will happen for tt one week.... though i dun wan mami to go.... but she has her freedom.... she cant always be with us..... i think tt whole week i duno wat i will do.... wat will happen to me for tt one week.... most pro my sis will be back late.... den me left alone at home... with four walls.... haiz.... no matter how unhapi i m.... they already book the tics and i cant change anythin....
Saturday, August 13, 2005
♥ yeah... todae is sharon bdae.....
yeah... todae is sharon au's bdae..... though many ppl dun lyk her..... but it ok cos we cant expect everybody to lyk the same person...... well.... nw gt so many project to do... sem pro.... ip pro.... innovation n productivity pro..... duno still gt wat..... haiz....
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
♥ haiz.... another bad dae.....
haiz.... todae is suppose to be public holidae.... but still hav to go skool..... sumore at 8am..... wah.... den saw him twice todae... once at library.... once at atrium.... he still lyk very scare of me... dots.... msg him... ask him still scare of me arg.... in the end.... is scare of my friends... anan n angela.... hahaha..... wow... anan n angela very scary sia... haha..... went tian di after skool.... took a ride from ding sheng's father car.... the father drive three n a half person.... three guys.... me onli half person.... so squeezy in the car.... next time i rather ownself take bus.... cos keep knocking my head on the handle bar.... suffer for abt 5 min or so.... den wen at tian di.... gt one tian di staff cum to me... ask me wat bks i wan... wan him introduce... wahh.... sicko.... ask n ask n ask..... cant stand den walk away.... den the idoit whay chuin duno say wat to stanlie n qizhi.... den they saw me den laugh.... wah..... next time i dun wan go tian di liao.... if wan... i take my bk den go pay str. away..... wahh..... cant stand it.....
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
♥ haiz..... bad dae.....
haiz.... todae is suppose to be public holidae.... but still hav to go skool..... sumore at 8am..... wah.... den saw him twice todae... once at library.... once at atrium.... he still lyk very scare of me... dots.... msg him... ask him still scare of me arg.... in the end.... is scare of my friends... anan n angela.... hahaha..... wow... anan n angela very scary sia... haha..... went tian di after skool.... took a ride from ding sheng's father car.... the father drive three n a half person.... three guys.... me onli half person.... so squeezy in the car.... next time i rather ownself take bus.... cos keep knocking my head on the handle bar.... suffer for abt 5 min or so.... den wen at tian di.... gt one tian di staff cum to me... ask me wat bks i wan... wan him introduce... wahh.... sicko.... ask n ask n ask..... cant stand den walk away.... den the idoit whay chuin duno say wat to stanlie n qizhi.... den they saw me den laugh.... wah..... next time i dun wan go tian di liao.... if wan... i take my bk den go pay str. away..... wahh..... cant stand it.....
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
♥ Hapi national day!!!
yeah.... once again.... it singapore birthdae... singapore is 40 years old..... older den me..... hahah.... of cos.... hope this year singapore would be safe a peaceful..... economy rise..... all people gt job.... everyone hapi..... yeah......
went bugis with my mum..... den she kept sayin she goin japan with ah ma, ah gong, big aunt n duno my cousin gt go not..... den the whole dae been thinking reason n gving lots of lots of reason to ask her bring me to japan also...... but duno can anot..... reali wan go..... they might be goin in the second week of sept.... duno gt school not.... hope finish liao... den can go.... gv her reason until she kept laughing.... me kept thinking..... wat.... ermm.... i can help u carry heavy thing.... wat i can help u massage.... wat i can help u calculate currency very fast.... all sorts of reason i also gv.... haha..... reali hope can go.... reali wan go till... i say mi, u help me pay first.... den wen i work... i installment pay u back.... hahhahah.....
went bugis with my mum..... den she kept sayin she goin japan with ah ma, ah gong, big aunt n duno my cousin gt go not..... den the whole dae been thinking reason n gving lots of lots of reason to ask her bring me to japan also...... but duno can anot..... reali wan go..... they might be goin in the second week of sept.... duno gt school not.... hope finish liao... den can go.... gv her reason until she kept laughing.... me kept thinking..... wat.... ermm.... i can help u carry heavy thing.... wat i can help u massage.... wat i can help u calculate currency very fast.... all sorts of reason i also gv.... haha..... reali hope can go.... reali wan go till... i say mi, u help me pay first.... den wen i work... i installment pay u back.... hahhahah.....
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
♥ been busi.... school startin tml....
been resting and doing my ip project.... finally finish most of the work... now left some thing to add.... but not sure hw to do.... must go school den ask my friends help me.... haiz.... been so frustrating.... haiz....
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Thursday, August 04, 2005
♥ dayang so cute n funny....
haha.... the dayang so cute..... reali though he marry baobei.... den hav all the ceremony..... ask his third bro to carry everything.... so funny..... den still gt tea ceremony..... den suddenly kiss baobei.... den tml say wat he n baobei 'dong fang' hahha..... so cute..... luckily tml no skool no nite claz.... if not i miss... den cannot c the best part..... hahaha......
Thursday, August 04, 2005
♥ confused at 1 thing.... happi at one thing.....
these few daes been so confused 4 me..... but didnt wan to tink abt it.... common test tml.... after common test must prepare for exam... i hope nothing will make me confused n make me no mood to study.... so i tink i not goin to care for anyting right now..... though seem very bad... but no choice... i dun wan my study to be affected..... i dun wan risk my studies.... i dun wan stay for one more year or wat.... wan to finish my poly in exactly three years.... not more den tt.... so i goin to keep a very simple mind from nw.... so hope notin bother from nw till exam period.....
next.... hapi at one thing wen i woke up tis morning.... my mum told me my aunt is pregnant again.... wow..... first i gt dandan.... next i gt yongyong.... den nw i gt one more.... so excited..... yeah..... haha.... wen checkup wif my bro yest.... saw babies there..... so cute..... i more n more lyk babies.... yeah... at first wanted to be a nurse or kindergarden teacher.... but nw.... hmmm.... my mum say if i reali lyk... den after my poly.... mayb i can go take up teacher's course.... den becum a teacher tt teaches kids... yeah.... haha......
next.... hapi at one thing wen i woke up tis morning.... my mum told me my aunt is pregnant again.... wow..... first i gt dandan.... next i gt yongyong.... den nw i gt one more.... so excited..... yeah..... haha.... wen checkup wif my bro yest.... saw babies there..... so cute..... i more n more lyk babies.... yeah... at first wanted to be a nurse or kindergarden teacher.... but nw.... hmmm.... my mum say if i reali lyk... den after my poly.... mayb i can go take up teacher's course.... den becum a teacher tt teaches kids... yeah.... haha......
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Monday, August 01, 2005
♥ haha..... expected it sia....
haha.... yest was tokin to elaine abt sum relationship n bf thingy.... den show her sum pics den she ask me go my feeling....dots.... u shld worry urself elaine.... haha.... now left u tt i worry abt... yest happened sumthing tt i expected very earlier b4.... haha.... nv expect him to say out so fast.... told my mum abt it... haha.... she lept laughing.... even my sis smiling secretly.... oh my god sia.... haha..... hmm.... wat shld i do? i duno leh.... duno wat to do... but nw though he say wat he say might affect out friendship... i dun tink so... haha.... he lyk so scare of me.... was thinking and laughing abit wen he say tt he was tinkin if he did wrong cos i nv reply or msg him back.... haha..... wat a cute thinking.... haha.... i hope he himself wun be scare of me.... hope he be lyk last time.... dun lyk it affect our friendship first... haha.....
Monday, August 01, 2005
