Sunday, March 12, 2006
♥ long update.....
too long nv update.... cos been going out wif my grandma n mami.... if not my aunt.... if not my friends..... although it been very fun..... however.... it does have some things that make me sad..... actuali plan of goin ice skate wif my friends.... to hav a gd fun.... however wen we reach there.... the rink is close for promoting the disney on ice.... wen down all the way to jurong east for an hour and more..... sumore miss our way there..... but in the end didnt get to skate.... haha..... duno to laugh or cry.... haha.... den didnt wan to go home so early.... den wan go beach.... cos wenever i sad..... i luv to go beach.... but nobody noe how to go to the nearest beach.... no choice....
after tt dae.... been feelin very sad n depress..... been tokin to elaine.... we two are alike.... same problem..... same trouble.... been tellin elaine alot of thing.... wat i do if it wasnt true..... wat i will do so i wun regret.... haha..... but no matter wat.... it all a dream.... just saw my friend's angela blog..... there was a chinese poem.... reali true.....
let go a person who luv u..... it not painful......
let go a person u luv.... it painful.....
luv a person who doesnt luv u...... it more painful......
dun wait till it wrong den u regret.....
dun wait till it lost den u cherish n wan it back.....
it reali true..... ppl normali wait till it gone.... it over.... den they regret wat they done.... but by the time they regret..... it already too late.... no more chance for them to cherish wat they lost..... no more chance for them to go again n treasure wat they lost...... but y.... y is it ppl often wait till it lost den they cherish.... y is there not another chance for them to noe tt they are wrong..... y is it heaven like to play a joke on gerls..... y is it tt often is it love n relationship tt make ppl lose their mind.....
actuali had a thinkin tt it be my first n my last.... but now.... it wun..... it will nv happen..... can onli blame me..... i not strong enough..... if onli i was strong enough..... calm enough.... able to work out nicely.... it wun turn out wat it is todae..... haha.... reali..... heaven make a joke out of us.... haiz..... watever.... been tinking about the past..... can onli dream..... onli in dream.... my wish can cum true.... haha.....
anyway.... gt a new darling..... in all my life..... there is six guys who i am reali close to...... one is my father and brother..... two gone.... left four..... two is my fav cousin..... left two.... one is my new darling n the other is him..... all i left is memories of him..... and the past.... wat elaine say is right..... haha..... she has her own problems..... yet she willing to hear me nag n cry..... we both sumtime hav the same thinking.... but cant do tt as it will hurt our closest kin....
all i left who is closest is my mother, sister and brother..... nw.... i just hope i can clear my mind of those memories..... the more i leave the memories..... the more i get hurt..... the more the feeling..... the more my heart pain...... haiz.... just hope sumone can brainwash my mind so i can forget all these..... den i wun be in such a pain situation..... up to todae.... the onli ting i can do is to make myself busy..... so i will forget all these....
ps: elaine.... i not sure if u will read my blog.... but wan to let u noe tt.... soon.... u will find sumone who u likes.... and he like u too.... a person who wun trick u..... a person who reali cares for u..... i will pray for u..... just hope tt next time if i wana sumone to tok to.... u be the sumone..... and if u wana sumone to tok to or a shoulder to cry on.... dun forget me.... me live near u..... very fast get to ur there.... haha.... kristen, chua, eileen.... thans for being my friend..... now u three are steady nw.... gd for u three.... i too will pray for u three to be hapi..... best wishes to u three.....
after tt dae.... been feelin very sad n depress..... been tokin to elaine.... we two are alike.... same problem..... same trouble.... been tellin elaine alot of thing.... wat i do if it wasnt true..... wat i will do so i wun regret.... haha..... but no matter wat.... it all a dream.... just saw my friend's angela blog..... there was a chinese poem.... reali true.....
let go a person who luv u..... it not painful......
let go a person u luv.... it painful.....
luv a person who doesnt luv u...... it more painful......
dun wait till it wrong den u regret.....
dun wait till it lost den u cherish n wan it back.....
it reali true..... ppl normali wait till it gone.... it over.... den they regret wat they done.... but by the time they regret..... it already too late.... no more chance for them to cherish wat they lost..... no more chance for them to go again n treasure wat they lost...... but y.... y is it ppl often wait till it lost den they cherish.... y is there not another chance for them to noe tt they are wrong..... y is it heaven like to play a joke on gerls..... y is it tt often is it love n relationship tt make ppl lose their mind.....
actuali had a thinkin tt it be my first n my last.... but now.... it wun..... it will nv happen..... can onli blame me..... i not strong enough..... if onli i was strong enough..... calm enough.... able to work out nicely.... it wun turn out wat it is todae..... haha.... reali..... heaven make a joke out of us.... haiz..... watever.... been tinking about the past..... can onli dream..... onli in dream.... my wish can cum true.... haha.....
anyway.... gt a new darling..... in all my life..... there is six guys who i am reali close to...... one is my father and brother..... two gone.... left four..... two is my fav cousin..... left two.... one is my new darling n the other is him..... all i left is memories of him..... and the past.... wat elaine say is right..... haha..... she has her own problems..... yet she willing to hear me nag n cry..... we both sumtime hav the same thinking.... but cant do tt as it will hurt our closest kin....
all i left who is closest is my mother, sister and brother..... nw.... i just hope i can clear my mind of those memories..... the more i leave the memories..... the more i get hurt..... the more the feeling..... the more my heart pain...... haiz.... just hope sumone can brainwash my mind so i can forget all these..... den i wun be in such a pain situation..... up to todae.... the onli ting i can do is to make myself busy..... so i will forget all these....
ps: elaine.... i not sure if u will read my blog.... but wan to let u noe tt.... soon.... u will find sumone who u likes.... and he like u too.... a person who wun trick u..... a person who reali cares for u..... i will pray for u..... just hope tt next time if i wana sumone to tok to.... u be the sumone..... and if u wana sumone to tok to or a shoulder to cry on.... dun forget me.... me live near u..... very fast get to ur there.... haha.... kristen, chua, eileen.... thans for being my friend..... now u three are steady nw.... gd for u three.... i too will pray for u three to be hapi..... best wishes to u three.....
Sunday, March 12, 2006
