Thursday, April 23, 2009
♥ "月老"
haha... yest very cute... met up with kristen... she help me got a free treat... a belated birthday treat from wen mung... haha... this gerl aka daughter of mine.... how can i say... abit like 我肚子里的蛔虫... haha... sumore trying to be 月老.... haha... this little 鬼灵精怪 daughter of mine... haha... see lor... see u will success anot... doesnt have a bad impression on him... that a good start for a friend... haha.... yest wen to take there... actually was at hougang mrt station... waiting for her... den board the train... while waiting... ck was chit chatting with me... once met kris on the train... she start toking about him... kind of forget... den on the way... cant deny her "abilities"... haha.... ya ya... i admit i envy.... it true ma.... hehe.... i also envy others... wahaha.... den waited outside kino for wen mung..... at first doesnt have any impression on him... cos very very long never see him... plus only met him twice.... but when he reach... could rmb it was him...
den we went crystal jade eat..... haha.... tok alot of stuff there.... den we chit chat... eat until 9 plus..... we walked off and wen to have dessert at cini jap restuarant.... forgot the name... have yuzi ice cream... oh my god... very sour... den kris mention.... if i have a car... my birthday present will be she decorating the interior of my car... haha... plus my car need to be blue... yeah.... my fav car in honda jazz.... and in silver blue.... haha... that my dream car... which i everyday will see while waiting for company transport.... i wan a car.... though now car is cheap... but no money raise it... haha.... kristen.... mayb u might succeed... haha.... kidding.... it takes time.... let nature takes its course.... more gathering and free treat i dun mind... haha.... yes... thanks wen mung for the belated birthday treat and the lift home....
*ps: faster buy a car... i be ur driver... haha...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
♥ Life.....
人生自古谁无死; haiz.... last sunday wen over to ah ma's house... all the uncles, aunties, cousin were there.... a gathering... i can say.... ah gong is even skinnier.... i think he is like only 20-30 kgs? or less.... they even got the photo ready... i duno wat to say.... life.... 生老病死.... it a cycle... 老会死，不老也会死， 病会死，不病也会死... haiz.... sometime i really wish i was 古代人... haha... those in the show like 射雕英雄传、神雕侠侣 etc.... they seem so peaceful in there.... 要爱就爱，要恨就恨, isnt so much conflict around.... haha.... i daydreaming.... how i wish can turn back time... go back to school life.... but school life has a sad event happen.... or even earlier... to when i was a baby.... 无忧无虑.... haha.... haiz.... now kind of scare i be like her.... often having those thoughts... i hope it wun happen... but some symptom it happen to me.... i must stay happy... regardless wat happen... if i could....
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
♥ 信任
你根本就不信任我，你可曾听我的心声，真真正正的听。我一直以为，最了解我的人是你，最了解我的性格是你，但我错了，你根本就不了解我。是，我爱闹，爱玩，但我也有认真的一面，你知道吗？我并不需要在我认真的时候，跟你说一句：我现在是认真的。 别人怎么不相信我，不信任我，不知道我，怎么说我，我不管，但你怎么也一样。我最需要的是你的相信，信任，还有你肯聆听的耳朵，但是却没有。别人怎么说，你说你不信，但是你还是信了。我无话可说。有时真想什么都不管，结束这一切算了。
Friday, April 17, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
♥ funeral
last thursday have a bad dream... dreamt of my father's funeral... was it a premonition... i hope not... but it seem that it just happened yesterday.... the whole scenario came back.... from when i was in secondary school.... i remember that day how it goes....
that day was the last day of school.... for our last Chinese 'O' level paper in a few more days.... that day everyone was in their class... our form teacher, Ms Ong, was giving out our report books and stuff by index number... as i was no.18, so it wouldn't be so fast.... so i decided to take a short nap.... suddenly our class phone rang.... i woke up abit... as ms ong was talking kind of long on the phone... i went back to slp with my friends around me chit chatting.... den suddenly ms ong call me out.... i was tinking so fast reach me liao meh.... while i was walking up... i notice sumthing at my desk.... my friends suddenly started packing my stuff into my bag for me... i was kinda shocked and surprise and confuse.... until ms ong told me sumthing bad happen....
my mind was in blank.... she walked me out of the class.... at that time... it was quite sum time before school end... when i walked past the other classroom.... people were looking thinking why i so early go off.... when i was at the admin counter.... ms ong ask if have enough $.... lucky mami always ask me keep extra $ on hand... i walked out.... i tried to hail a cab... but couldnt get any cab at all.... i walked and panic.... i notice school ended.... everyone was out... but i still at the roadside trying to hail a cab... at that time... i was really lost..... suddenly my phone rang...
it was mami... she told me sumthing.... 爸爸走了... at that time... i was in a blank state of mind.... i still suddenly asked mami... 什么走了.... she reply... 死了.... i... i... i just breakdown and cried at the roadside.... i couldnt help it.... i was crying till out of breath... i walked and walked.... kept trying to hail a cab.... finali there was one... i was still crying... and think the taxi driver was shocked... i just asked him faster send me home... when i reach home... the main gate was open... my uncle (my father's brother) family was there..... when i wen in... my mum ask me go see my father... he was lying on the bed.... stiff.... still.... i was scared.... i dun dare go close to my dad.....
it all happened very fast.... the next thing i knew.... i was wearing the funeral clothes.... sum people came to dress my father up.... me and my sis went throught sum procedure.... going down by stairs calling my father.... kneeling at the carpark roadside... calling for my father... when my father was placed in the coffin.... everyone was devasated.... the next thing i know was.... a few day later was my Chinese 'O' level paper.... didnt have the mood to study... all my friends advice me to study... but i really dun have the mood....
i still rmb weixien came to help me at the funeral.... she help me serve and fold the funeral paper... my aunties still told me she a good friend.... sumone who dun mind this kind of stuff... sum will avoid doing this kind of things at funeral... but she was ok and willing to help.... at that time... i was very grateful to her.... still rmb early that morning of my Chinese paper... i woke up early.... pour a cup of coffee for my father.... praing to him to help me for my last Chinese paper... when in school... really didnt have the mood to study... but as all my friends kept advising me... i just tried to read abit....
after that.... wen straight home to help out.... the day finali came.... it was the last day.... my mum was crying with my grandma.... they were devasated.... but they couldnt go send my father.... me and my sis was placing our hand on the van and walked a long distance... my cousin was at the side beside me.... holding us.... when my father was place on the board.... when he was roll into the flames... me and my sis couldnt stop crying... i still cried till out of breath and weak.... nearly fainted.. and had to have my cousin hold me....
when reached home.... my mum was still crying... we washed up.... that night we all slpt together in a room... the next day we went to pick up my father's ashes.... each of us place a bone inside the urn before the person place all inside the urn.... for the next few days.... we all slpt in our room.... i still rmb one night.... i suddenly felt my bed at one side felt heavy... as if sumthing was 'sitting' on it.... i dun dare open my eyes.... in the morning... i told my mum.... she say that position was looking at my sis.... highly possible is... cos my father like my sis alot....
that was a great change to us.... sumtime my brother will suddenly call for my father.... haix.... it was a long period for us.... sumtime when think about the whole scenario.... i couldnt help feeling sad and dropping tears... it felt just like yesterday.... after that only left my sis, me, my brother and my mum 相依为命.... i told myself.... my only kin left my sis and my mum... i must let my mum have a good life when i grow up.... fiona told me: dream is the opposite of reality.... i really hope it is....
Saturday, April 11, 2009
♥ birthday 10-04-09
yesterday was my birthday... didnt celebrate.... first was due to kind of sick.... second was at my grandma's house... got to know from my mum on wednesday that ah gong isn't feeling well.... kind of worried.... so we went to see him yesterday... was really shocked.... since new year that time till now.... he really sick and changed alot... he slim down alot... everyone know that sick sure will slim down... but he only left skin and bones.... i dun dare to keep looking at him... he seem worse den before... i really scared.... heard from my mum that around two weeks later... is his birthday.... wonder if they will celebrate for him.... there are many things which i thinking... but i dun dare say.... wat i really wish is for him to recover.... i tink that my only birthday wish this year.... haix.... really duno wat to say.....
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Zhao Yun
You are a reliable team worker. You serve a noble and outstanding cause. You are flawless - you possess a great physique, courage, keen intelligence and charisma. Throughout your life, you have braved insurmountable odds that many would not. Great job!
You are a reliable team worker. You serve a noble and outstanding cause. You are flawless - you possess a great physique, courage, keen intelligence and charisma. Throughout your life, you have braved insurmountable odds that many would not. Great job!
wahahaha.... my favourite... yeah.... I am Zhao Yun!!!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
歌曲：《我只能爱你》 演唱：彭青
当你握紧我的手
我决定和你走
经历再多的挫折
也绝对不退缩
当河流都倒流
我还在你左右
一直陪伴你到时间的尽头
就算有一天 天和地都会分离
也永远不离也不弃
要和你在一起
呜~~~~~~~~~~~~
为了你 我可以
因为爱你我只能爱你
生命荡涤轮回里
你是唯一不忘的记忆
真正的爱过
才算真正的活过
爱你 从此绝不会放手
不曾褪色的承诺
比永久还要久
痛过哭过也恨过
从未想放弃过
莫问我要理由
爱就是我所有
今生来世你是不变的守候
就算全世界
都要来与你为敌
也还要紧紧抱着你
泪不会掉一滴
呜~~~~~~~~~~~~
为了你 我可以
因为爱你我只能爱你
只要为你我愿意
牺牲一切都不觉可惜
真正的爱过
才算真正的活过
爱你 从此再无他所求
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Monday, April 06, 2009
♥ siewlit birthday
let see.. haven been updating my blog recently... last week wen to celebrate another colleague's birthday on 31/feb as her birthday is on 1st april.... hmm... funni was.... when reach marina square... we were confuse where got level 3 as the pasta de waraku is at level 3... so ck wen to walk ard looking for it... other standing ard... me and weipeng standing near mac using wireless to surf the web finding the address again... finali found it... funni was no reservation made... hmm... den i notice i call the wrong number... haha... but still manage to have seating for 8 pax.... phew... 
den we sat and ate.... fiona very courageous... she order the pasta is very black wan... like black ink... forgotten wat the name of the dish... den everyone look at her while she eat... haha... her teeth, her tongue all black.... we all laughed... but each had to take a bite of her noodle.... 同甘共苦... haha... den soon... we had the birthday cake there.... after that wen home... haha... there was a funi part... siangyee suddenly toking about the 煮妇的假期... say cannot watch... den wen leaving... we all keep teasing her faster go back.... mayb still can catch the last few minutes... or we go nearby coffee shop... haha.... den in the end... when i reach home... i was able to catch the last 2 minutes of the show... haha... diao.... 
Monday, April 06, 2009
