Thursday, September 24, 2009
♥ 不对劲
这几天好累，尤其是星期二。不说了。我的潜意识不对劲。有些事，清楚的潜意识是让我这么想，什么是对的，什么是错的。但是空虚的潜意识却大过清楚的潜意识，让我做出不对或不清楚自己在做什么。我怎么了？就有如今天等巴士的时候，一位陌生人，不知算不算，载我去ang mo kio 等公司的巴士，清楚的潜意识是不能上，但空虚的潜意识我却上了车。算是认识也算不认识的陌生人。也不知怎么讲。就像今天，本来天气晴朗，不到几秒，突然间乌云密布，整个天空黑了下来。来不及反应。在那乌云密布的一小部分，看到一片曙光。不知哪曙光会否被覆盖。咳、好想快点找回自己。让我清醒起来。我不能放弃。
haven been myself lately, been very tired. especially tuesday, dont wish to talk about it. not in a right state of mind. some thing, right state of mind told me to do the right and correct way, but the blur and blank state of mind, overpower it, making me doing stuff which i wasnt really know what i was doing. like today, was waiting for bus to ang mo kio, suddenly just went up a stranger van, stranger or not, i cant define, can say i kind of know, but also not very know. he drove me to ang mo kio. actually didnt want to go up the van, but the blur and blank state just overpower it and i went up, as if i really trust and doesnt care anything. what happening to me? today also was a very fine day, suddenly within minutes, the whole sky is fill with dark clouds. it so fast that you have no time to react. in that dark clouds, i saw a small portion of light. it kind of gave me a relieving mind, but still wonder if that small portion of light will be dark too. i need to find back the right me, the right state of mind. let me wake up, i won't give up or drop down so easily. i hope.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
