Tuesday, September 23, 2008

♥ blaming...

angry angry angry.... why always like that... her things becum my concern.... is she out to kill me... wasnt my fault... yet kept aiming at me... am i glad and happy i not under her anymore... i so happy... wasnt my fault yet blaming and naming me every sentence.... lucky i was not in the room.... but even if i was in the room... i dun care... it not my fault... my batam fty very good... i always sent in on time... so when was it ever my fault... no money my fault??? buyer dun release my fault... dun tell me they dun release i need bring a knife or gun to threaten them release money.... everything my fault... y not her fault... now... everyone on level 4 know she my aunt... and how demanding... how bad temper... how "compromise" she is... how "understanding" she is.... how "boostful" she is... wow... she famous... really famous in the company... even if i not here... i still think it will happen... as if i one person can change the whole thing....

now i this.. i dun care if the bull is ugly or what... at least i am in control and this is wat i am feeling now...

I AM GRUMPY.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Monday, September 22, 2008

♥ Cycling at east coast

cycling... finallly i went to cycle and exercise on saturday... wake up early... went to have breakfast with mami... reach home not long... receive call from fiona.... she need to go back to office... so i wen out early... wen to tamp to get model plane.... and bought my comic... den bought a curry puff for myself and a chocolate cake for fiona... reach office... watch show while fiona work.... was suppose to meet adrian at 3.30pm... but fiona still working... den work till 5 plus faster take cab down... dotz.... haha.... den at first was raining heavily.... but when reach... it stop... so good.... den off we went to cycle.... cycle... cycle... stop halfway due to a phone call.... den off i start... panting... haha... i cant stop.... den cycle again.... fiona very energetic wor... cannot cycle pass her... haha.... den stop at took some photos.... den after one hour plus... we ride back... halfway through... got a call and after that... heart begin to pain.... must be the heart problem again... haix....

oh ya... i forgot one part... the part which i kept emphasizing that i wan to post it out... a hero save the day.... a lady wen cycling downslope... guess was due to brake on the wrong brake.... the front brake instead of the back brake... thus she fell... i saw... but was overshot... adrian behind got off and wen to help as none of the passer-by or cyclists stop to help... i shouted to fiona who was way way infront.. and cycle back and help the lady pick up her stuff and so.... guess she had a really bad fall... her knee seem to be hurting alot... worse part was nobody even bother to stop and help... i still rmb once when cycling with my friends.... a kid fell down too... nobody help... den i cycle up to help and shift her bicycle... are singaporeans all so selfish.... they should go 'sell fish' instead.... sure make money... and go on wrong path.... ring the bell... they ring back... haix....

oh ya oh ya... forgot another part again... haha... duno when and at where... i lost my ring... which i took out before cycling... only wen i reach home den i know... lucky was not the one mami gave... but was the one i bought at tamp.... duno is cos never put properly or cos keep taking my phone out and it drop... i also duno... feel slight weird without the ring.... but never mind... can go buy again... lucky not ex... plus the size was also slightly large for my finger... wanted to change alot time liao... haha....

wen to find lisin... once got there... lisin... can i have a cup of water... haha... den start to pant again... den ask lisin cycle the bicycle back for me... while i ran and walk at the side... haha... den swallow the whole bottle of water down.... and was sweating like it was raining... haha.... they all got a shock.... den walk to jumbo there the stone and sit there and chit chat.... wow... i enjoy the breeze.... haha... tok about office... haix.... den walk back to mac there to have dinner at hongkong cafe.. the food not very good... haha... den chit chat abit... and off we went home... took a cab with fiona... on the way talk alot... haha.... ermm.... about what.... alot... haha....

i wana go again... train myself.... wana go have fun again.... best... a chalet.... wow... cant wait for that...

I AM GRUMPY.
Monday, September 22, 2008

Thursday, September 18, 2008

♥ hate

mr lee mr lee... always him... y must he always change and edit stuff at his own will... does he have any respect anot... he is just temporary handling docs for tracy... y must he come out with so many changes... within these few months... how many stuff have been change due to his own will... previous export permit also lyk that... if he want to change... cant he discuss.... he not the boss lor.... i really hate working here.... does he have any respect for those doing documents.... even i not around... how about kris or tracy... he just handling for few months only... i really wish i can stick his picture on this and throw dart but i rather not as i dun wan see the face!!!!!!

I AM GRUMPY.
Thursday, September 18, 2008

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

♥ mirage 2000C

yest started fixing the mirage... haha.... starting was kind of hard... cos no glue... so use super glue... it stick... but hehe... accidentally spoil one small thing... luckily it is to be fix inside... doubt be able to notice it... hehe... wooops..... den still need to paint it... but i doubt i be painting it... will be leaving it as grey color.... scare later paint wrongly... wahh.... dun wan sia... got the base everything up.... left all the bombs and wheels... must get super glue first... haha.... but the plane wasnt in a good condition... as in... the material not very good... haha... bought at kiddy palace... wat can i expect... once finish fix it... go those shops and buy better... and must buy those english version de... haha...

I AM GRUMPY.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Monday, September 15, 2008

♥ airplane model

bought an airplane model to do... duno why... mayb cos it cheap... and i like doing this kind of work... haha... but... but... but... i dun understand and duno how to do... haha... cos it all in jap... die... must start studying jap again.... must go find those shop to help and get those necessary stuff first... hehe....

I AM GRUMPY.
Monday, September 15, 2008

Friday, September 12, 2008

♥ mooncake festival

today our company had a mooncake competition... wow... lucky i wasnt in... but too bad for yuxian... haha.... he pair up with one PPC gerl and found 1st prize... each got a trophy and $88 each... treat... haha... our boss also kanna the competition for management levels.... haha... our boss won too..... SCM rulz.... but boss got 1 box of mooncake for prize and another one not sure was wat... haha... i somemore sabotage boss... HR asked pomelo 1 piece or two piece... me and fiona shouted 2... haha... boss looked at us until... haha... so nice... but i think they dun dare eat mooncake anymore... haha... dun say eat.. i think they dun even wan see the mooncake... for me... i dun like and cant eat much... and have phobia of it already... haha... just the name can make me shiver...

I AM GRUMPY.
Friday, September 12, 2008

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

♥ exam results

wen to check my results.. wow.... ermm.. haha... how should i describe... starting was this... haha...

Academic History
INTRODUCTION TO ECONOMICS FAILED 30.0
STATISTICS 1 (HALF UNIT) CREDITED 41.0
MATHEMATICS 1 (HALF UNIT) CREDITED 60.0
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING FAILED 11.0
INTRODUCTION TO BUSINESS AND MANAGEMENT FAILED 19.0

hahaha... some are expected... especially IBM... this year was really really hard... but didnt expect my econs could get 30... though would be lower.... POA was hard too.... format everything all changes.... but luckily my stat and math pass.... phew.... lucky passing rate is 34marks.... but sometime look at it.... seem like i failed four subjects instead.... choy.... but anyway... need to retake POA and ECON.... shall work hard this year.... back for my tuition.... lukcy got vincent help me with econs... that i could get 30 that high.... POA should have him to teach too.... yeah... JIA YOU!!!!

I AM GRUMPY.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

♥ my brother

do not know why... suddenly start to have some thinking about my outing which i cant go due to my brother... i dun hate him for that.... i dun hate him at all for making me unable to go out.... cos it not what he wanted.... but i do not know why is it so hard for people to understand my situation... rmb last time had few arguments regarding this... putting the blame to my mum... saying why never bring to hospital early.... resulting him to be lyk this.... it not as if my mum wanted it to happen... she too had very hard time last time till now.... nobody wish to have this kind of situation at home.... no one... but... those not in this kind of situation will never know the hard time.... but why... why am i thinking of the past again? haven't i forgotten it.... some of the places.... the food.... why is it pieces and pieces of it coming back.....

I AM GRUMPY.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008

♥ life is unfair

can i say life is unfair for everyone.... not long before... got friend bdae.... my other friends bought stuff that she like and cos many people share... the price shared among all was reasonable.... they all bought the stuff that the person like.... and now one more friend bdae.... they bought a very ex stuff.... duno how many people will share... but i duno.... i duno what i should feel ba... of the present they gave to me... i duno what to comment.... the present i love most was the gift from weixien... though not useable or eatible (just a example)... but it has meaning.... even my mum was surprised and touched by the meaning of the present... i still wrap it up nicely and kept it at a safe place....

sometime i feel like i not in them.... i not part of them.... how do i describe..... haiz.... i really duno what is my stand in them... just a spare? only when they need me to accompany den call me.... when only need to make up to the number den ask me along.... when dun need den push me aside? i admit sometime when they ask me go out... i tied to my stuff thus cant come... but it not as if i wish to stay home... i do wish to meet up with them.... mayb do some catching up.... but.... haix.... i really curious about my stand is a spare or a friend....

now... i only keep in contact with them.. and a few others... if i were to lose contact with them too... i doubt i have friends anymore.... sometime walking along... make me feel so lonely that even when i want to ask a friend out... it so hard... it make me feel more like going home early and rot my time away.....

will i be walking alone in the sunshine or walking in the dark with friend? i really duno.... i feel i just a nobody in the world... haha....

I AM GRUMPY.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Monday, September 01, 2008

♥ honda jazz

been going for my refresher course... oh... so nice can drive again.... somemore drive all the way to woodlands... everyone was like looking why ssdc car drive all the way there... haha.... help promote lor... haha... no la... ssdc moving to woodland there... lucky i pass liao... if not siao sia....

i really want find a day rent car and drive around.... with friends... of cos i saw lots of report about speeding accident... but neh...i wun speed... haha... too fast... i also scare.... haha... think only got the money to rent first...

my dream car... honda jazz or fit... small car... suitable for me... haha... once i finish my refresher course... i really going to rent car.... hehe

oh yeah... forgotten to mention have watched finish heart of greed... oh... so nice the show.... and the song inside... is too nice.... should watch should watch...

I AM GRUMPY.
Monday, September 01, 2008